Win, Lose or Draw

There comes a time in all of our lives when we'll be faced with success or failure. When we must decide whether to moved forward, take a step back or the hardest choice of all; to stand still. Will your actions cause you to win, to lose or draw? Winning doesn't always come with the victors cup. Losing doesn't rule you out the next stage of the game and drawing can be the difference between winning or losing. When you draw, you have to decide whether you're throwing in your hand for a better game. Are you standing still for a better opportunity? Or are you too afraid to play the game? As of lately, I've been constantly drawing. I've been throwing in good hands because I was too afraid of my own success. I've simply not made a move because I allowed fear, doubt and procrastination to be the driving force in my life. I have been riddled with regrets and what if's. I know now that standing still is not an option for me. I can't turn in my hand or skip my turn. I have to move full force ahead with the hand I was dealt. I have to play all my cards whether I win or lose. But one thing for sure...I must take action! What do you need to act on? What issues or circumstances have you allowed to stalemate your success? Are you afraid of success or failure? Now is the time to decide to win, lose or draw.

STOP RUSHING

In my courtship with Life; I flirted with Wisdom, which led to my dating Knowledge and ultimately marrying Understanding, who prevailed in the end. At times I still abide in the abyss of simply knowing without understanding. As I examine, explain, stress over, and enjoy the situations of life, I find many similar themes. The common lesson that I’ve been learning as of lately is to stop RUSHING! I can tie this theme into the central challenges of my life and probably yours. Have you ever been driving on the freeway, stuck behind a slow vehicle? Just when you decide to gun it and float past the yahoo in front of you, something tells you to be Patient…take your time…don’t RUSH. When you decide to listen to that voice, you notice the hook (police) hidden on the side and you just saved yourself from a ticket. In love, relationships, dating, test taking, meeting, driving, eating or simply going about your daily life; the more time you take the better you are. It’s always when you begin to RUSH, you forget the most important element. Professors always tell you to read every question on a test thoroughly and don’t RUSH. Your parent(s) told you to chew your food slowly, so you wouldn’t choke. Everyone says it’s better to take you time getting to know someone, don’t just jump in. But what if the chemistry is there? What if the knowledge is there? You may be tempted to Rush past the red flags, the courting, the condoms, the late night-hours-on-the-phone convo’s and the true magic of it all. Chemistry without the right kind of alchemy will lose its spark without the knowledge to sustain it. Knowledge has no meaning without understanding. Patience cannot be a personal virtue, if you RUSH through the aspects of life. Though you may be tempted to RUSH, don’t. (I Corinthians 10:13)

UNDERSTANDING

If Mona Lisa was his muse
I couldn't tell by her eyes...
If Judas was the truth
I couldn't tell by his lies...
If the world was united
I couldn't tell by the spies...
Daughter of the truth
Can't you see it in my eyes...
If you knew the truth
You wouldn't try to steal my prize...

Get an understanding for yourself!

Unanswered Questions

I keep trying to fight back tears;redirect my thinking. But the reality is, I feel defeated. I try to find comfort in this bottle of coke and bag of chips. Not working. Empty calories, same regret. What am I missing and or doing wrong? I'm tired of this dark cloud following me and preventing the sun. I know I said I would not complain, wince or cry aloud but when everyone believes the smile on your face and don't recognize the pain in your heart; what do you do? How do you regain that which is lost, that which you never had before? Success. How do you forgive hurtful words, gossip and disrespect? Friends. Which way do you turn when you were traveling in the wrong direction from start? GOD. When do you realize the things you need you had all along? Content. How do you get the things you've always wanted and your heart desired? Faith. When do souls meet and lust leave? Love. From work to relationships, my heart is heavy and mixed with steel. Troubles at work, between friends, waiting for a romance to begin. Finding my way, seeking the light, pursuing a purpose, passionately right.

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THINKING OUT LOUD

I feel myself drifting. I feel the unshed tears lining in my eyes. I try to swallow, to push down that lump of uncertainty, unhappiness, doubt. I try to foucs but my mind has many thoughts. I try to see but I can't focus on the vision. I search for direction but I stand lost. Sensory overload. Debt. Dreams. Passion. Discipline. Discerment. Stewardship. Love. Loss. Work. Tide. Caregiver. Free loader. Slacker. Grace. Mercy. Hine sight. Who or what, shall I become?

EVOLUTION

In the heart of the struggle, that's where I laid my claim. In the midst of the puzzle, that's where I felt my pain...
My thinking was misguided and my vision was blurred. In love, relationships, work and trying to find my passion; I felt that I was always coming up short, missing that finishing piece to the puzzle. When things didn't go my way, I felt struggle was a punishment. But struggle has taught me appreciation, discipline and perseverance. As we grow and mature, our thinking should change, we should evolve. In the evolution of myself, I choose to learn from past experiences and reflect on it. When things don't go my way, I take a different approach and have a different reaction. As I search for love, life and the pursuit of my happiness, I now lay claim to destiny. I now feel joy. I recently took a short trip to visit a friend in Florida. His insight on life and his accomplishments made me want to do and be better. Eric made me think optimistically about the future by doing nothing at all besides living his life. His confidant stroll, his successful endeavors, his 2 year promotional plan and his demeanor made me do my own soul searching. I am thankful that I have all that I need but now I'm journeying towards the things that I want. I'm looking forward to the future and with each baby step, I am evolving!